I am absolutely in love with God. He is everything perfect for me....strength, power, comfort, peace, love, counselor, wisdom, forgiving, healing, life giving, and so much more. His blessings have been many, and his patience with me has been MUCH. So many times throughout my life I have had that "pinch me is this for real-it is so good" kind of feeling. They all point to Him. Equally many times in my life I have been knocked down to below my knees in desperation, sadness, or anger truly unable to pick myself up...all a direct result of things of this world...and getting back up, successfully, all points to Him, too. Perhaps it is all of the above that has brought back the clouds....the dark ones, that seem to linger and feel so heavy. Hence, the disappointment. My very favorite story in the Bible is in Matthew 14: 25-33. To me, it is so indicative of life. Jesus is so amazing and so loving...anxious, if you will, for us to venture out, trust, and as John Ortberg says so well, "get out of the boat"...extending his Arms and Hands with "Come to Me." He wants nothing else...but for me, and us, to come to Him. I feel like I do that often....but just like Peter. Confident, strong, and really excited at first and then the winds come...some blow softly unable to move my focus, and then some blow hard enough to shift my focus...and I allow the stuff of this world to cloud my world and to distract me from what is most important, Him. Why is it so hard at times? And why is it that some of those "winds" seem to engulf me? I
can and do hear my mom's quiet heaven spoken voice in her answer as I type..."cuz you let them, Kimmy Ann." It truly throws me into this world of not darkness, per se, but "blahness" as I dwell in this place of disappointment constantly whispering words to myself of "oh you of little faith..."
I spend way too much time, I know, trying to figure people out...trying to grasp at understanding their motives and decisions....and why? What good truly comes from that?
All I need is to put my eyes back on Him and never give Him the reason to ask me,
"Why did you doubt Me?"
The pfaff household starts looking forward to things WAY far out!! I have often thought about making a Ms. Becky construction paper chain link to help Reed and Cole count the days away!! Cole suited up this past weekend!! 
Craig's wishful (for now anyway) height! :)
Pfaff clan and Friends
A world of hope...all in our front yard!
Proud Grandparents, Tod (Craig's Confirmation Sponsor), and Craig
Miles, Tori and Tod
Craig's very first best friend...Mary....7 years later!!